Your desire for the approval of people is killing your faith. Or, to state it a little differently, your fear of people’s disapproval is killing your faith.
Listen to what Jesus said about the place we should look for approval:
“I do not receive glory from men; but I know you, that you do not have the love of God in yourselves. I have come in My Father’s name, and you do not receive Me; if another comes in his own name, you will receive him. How can you believe, when you receive glory from one another and you do not seek the glory that is from the one and only God?”
– John 5:41-44
If Jesus neither sought human approval nor feared human disapproval, should we not live with that same attitude? And if we do not live with that attitude, isn’t it obvious why our faith keeps getting snuffed out in the daily grind of life?
Your faith can grow by reading this blog and the books which I have written precisely because I cannot see you. This means that you can respond to Jesus in complete privacy. I hope that’s what you’re doing – responding to Him. I am writing not in my own name, but in His. Therefore, it’s only right that you should respond to Him instead of me. If you want clarification of something I’ve written, or you want to question or even challenge something I’ve written, these are valid reasons to respond to me. To the degree that you understand what I’m saying on His behalf, however, all that matters is your response to Him. He will see you; He will take note of your response. And He will approve.
It’s suicidal for your faith to fear man more than God. It’s like a farmer who plants a seed in the morning and digs it up before lunchtime. Futility.
Your faith will grow to the extent that you keep it a matter of intimacy between you and your Creator-Redeemer. No human being is qualified or entitled to share in that intimacy.
The faith which you have, have as your own conviction before God…
– Romans 14:22
Others will eventually notice your faith – some reacting positively and some reacting negatively. Just be sure that you are indifferent to whatever human approval or disapproval your faith in Christ may bring you.
Just as a husband and wife share an intimacy that is no one else’s business, so you should cultivate an intimacy with God that is no one else’s business. To the degree that you do, your faith will live and grow.