I make myself unhappy. Not intentionally, of course. In fact, I do all sorts of things intending to make myself happy. Many of them work…for a while. On the whole, however, I have never been able to make myself happy pursuing goals that I think will make me happy. It can be a frustrating life.
On the other hand, when I serve God – that is, when I don’t seek the things I want, but rather the things He wants, I end up happy. How does that work?
Let’s go over that again. I forget about pursuing all the things that I want. I look to Jesus Christ as my example and I imitate His selfless behavior. I seek the good of others instead of myself. I’m not doing anything to get what I want, and yet I find enormous satisfaction in this way of living. I’m still stumped – I don’t know how this can be working!
I guess I should simply acknowledge that God made me; I did not make myself. If this is the way He made life to work, then I should just accept it and not demand to understand it. All I can say is, it appears that He designed the universe so that human beings operate at their best…when they love.